Jessica is great

She is doing a lot of really wonderful things in her life. I want do do some of the same thing. She educates me and gets me excited aboutways to make my life more meaningful. It is nice to have someone so positive and kind in my life. So, beyond that here are the other things that I admire you for (some of these things are super superficial... oh well).
*You are thin and curvy. who has a body like that? After 2 kids!!! I don't really think it is fair.
*You had the desire and balls to dread your hair. It could have looked weird, but you didn't care! You dreaded your hair, and it suits you!!! That is just plain awesome! (Arwen, you are there too!)
*You are strong! You have the diet discipline of a robot. Simply amazing!
*You have garden space, and you are doing good things with it! How I miss that. I am excited to find some land we can garden on. I CAN'T WAIT.
*You will be raising chickens. In the middle of the city. Nice.
*There are more things, but I am tired. So, I might tell you some other time.

The Day B93.7 got up in my face

I have always listened to Classic Rock. I love it. I believe in listening to music of our past. Just because the music is old, doesn't mean it should be forgotten. Sometimes the music is MUCH better than the music currently being produced.

So, here I am, just living the dream in sunny Kona, on my way to pick up Brian. I was feeling cute, had the sunroof and the windows down, stereo blasting, my ponytail was flipping in the wind. I am thinking I freaking LOVE this song! This is the best day EVER! Go ahead and enjoy this moment with me.



I am remembering the first time I heard the song. I was sitting in the hall next to the Drama room when Andy West walks up wearing his headphones.

Andy: "This is the best song I have ever heard."

Ashtin: "Who are you listening to?"

Andy: "Green Day."

Ashtin: "I LOVE Green Day."

Andy: "You have to listen to this, I cried the first time I heard it."

I remember this like it was yesterday.

**Back to the car**

So as the song ends the radio station commercial breaks in and says (i wish I knew how to insert musical notes) "we'll be right back with more Classic Rock on B93.7."

Wait, What?!? Seriously, WTF? When did Gren Day become Classic Rock? When did the music of my time become classic? I am an old bag. I usually don't feel old, just semi-responsible, but this... I don't really have words to express what I am feeling.

Hey Ashes!

I was looking on the Louise Hay website in hopes of finding the meaning of bowels because I realized I use literal "potty" language. I decided to check the Daily Affirmation and this is what it said:

MY THOUGHTS ARE CREATIVE

I have been holding out on good blog ideas because I am scared people may actually read this. So, Starting today, I begin

My Thoughts Are Creative... My Thoughts Are Creative... My Thoughts Are Creative.

Get me out of this F*@#ing mom shell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have made a decision. I am going to post what I want, when I want to.
I will quit using this stupid blog for an update/vent page.
I will journal.
I will let you in. Not because I am great, but because I should.
I...I...I... This is my blog, and I am going to use it!

Maybe this is step 1 in a 12 step program for hermits.