Saturday, August 29, 2009

It looks like 2 pigs fighting under a blanket

Why do women feel the need to comment on how a pregnant woman looks? I wouldn't tell my best friend that she looks like she is having twins, much less a stranger. Do you just walk up to any woman and tell her how giant she looks? I don't. Today I was at a yard sale walked by a lady and said, "you look miserable." Then I got to tell her that I still have 2 months to go. While I write this Brian asks why it is such a shot to my ego? I might scratch his eyes out. It really isn't a shot, I just think it is weird that pregnancy gives women license to say whatever they want to the prego woman. I don't do it, and I hope you don't either.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Undecided topic

Let me start by saying that my blog is really ugly. Just like me, it needs a makeover. So, as you may have already noticed, I have changed the name from ...So Excited I Could Pee to my favorite quote from Lola, "Boise is Beautiful and Hideous."
Okay, on to bigger and better or equally boring things.
1. I think I may be a terrible mother. I just made grilled cheeses for dinner. One got a little burned and the other was the most glorious looking sandwich I have ever seen. It was all golden and bubbly inside... yum! Anyway, i decided that i would give Lola the delish one, but I cut it into 4ths, and traded the most burned part of mine with her. What is wrong with me? That is not motherly at all! Moms are supposed to eat the crap and like it.
2. My cousin died this past weekend. Possible overdose, possible homicide, the findings are inconclusive at this point. I should have cried. I am sad, but can't actually feel the emotion. One may think I am in shock, but I am not sure that would be true. I have had 3 family members die since last Thanksgiving. WTF? Can this year just be over already! Anyway, it has me thinking about my pregnancy with Lola. I was the typical hormonal basket case. I cried over the most ridiculous things! Gosh, I felt like such a girl! Then she was born and I had zero emotion for about 1.5 years. I was a lot like a vampire. I knew there was supposed to be emotion, but tears were a thing of the past. So, am I there again? Hmmm.
3. My belly feels HUGE! I am 32 weeks and have 8 to go. Where is this baby going to grow? I waddle and feel like I am sitting on her head. I hope she isn't all squishy when I deliver. Oh, and what am I going name her??? The nameless baby! Lola was picked out by 3 months... I guess it is true that the second child doesn't get the same kind of attention as the first. I just thought I would at least name her.
4.I have decided to take up blogging again even though it isn't popular anymore.
5.Brian has a new job. Do you know what he is doing tonight? He is at the State Fair with a client. Lucky duck! I want to go to the fair! I mean, who doesn't like to see the giant horse dong? Really? Why do they have things like that? Sick!
Anyway, this is what I've got. peace

Thursday, August 13, 2009


I dreamed of you last night...
Funny how a dream can be so real. I could smell the salty air, feel the powder sand under my feet, and hear that song in the palms. It.Was.Wonderful.
It wasn't exactly the same as I remember, but it was still true. The streets were gone and the pathways wove in and out of little shacks. The crystal ocean licked the beach so gently I wanted to cry.
You are part of me now, and I will be back. I won't forget.