Finding True Love....

I think this is a good example of communication between girls and boys. Sometimes it just doesn't make sense.

Have you ever needed a vacation? Have you ever taken complete care of someone or something for 686 of 690 days/nights? Have you ever been a mother?

I will tell you what, I am tired. I am tired of cleaning up piss from the floor- not because she is potty training, but because she takes off her pull-up to piss on the floor or bed. I am tired of taking "vacations" so other people can see Lola. Going to visit people doesn't help me to unwind, it is just new things for Lola to explore and get into. I still have to look after her. I love my baby, but I need to get the *!&# out. I need some time to myself!

Brian feels like he needs a break. Remember those 690 days? He had her by himself for 2. Otherwise, when I go out of town on these so called vacations, and when he goes to visit his friends (which, by the way, isn't very often) he is on a break from the family. Off the top of my head I can think of at least 18 days since February. WOW! Wouldn't that be nice! I am being mean, I know he needs a break.

I am a mother. I feel like it is my responsibility to take care of Lola ALL of the time. I need to learn to let go. By looking at the guilt I carry, you would think I grew up Catholic.

I know that I am just in a really bad mood, and tired and in pain, but is this what it is like to be a parent. Are mothers everywhere on the brink of madness? There isn't a lot stopping me from jumping onto the next train I see and riding away.

Last night we went to the most awesome show. Slightly Stoopid opened for G Love & Special Sauce. Normally Brian hates my music, but I talked him into going to this show. Slightly Stoopid was really good... the perfect set to get us into the G Love mood! Lola had a wonderful time at the show. There was plenty of space to run around, a great platform to dance on, and a hill to roll down. We were right up front when G Love started and Garrett was sexy as ever! It was a beautiful night. This was just the thing to prepare me for the next concerts on my list. Did I mention I am going to see DASHBOARD!!!!!!!!!!

G Love 1

I know you are curious about the big concert on Monday and I am here to tell you that it was just as I thought it would be. We had REALLY good seats, if you can say that about a Disney show, but we didn't feel like crawling over the 10 year old girls to get to them. Life House was good; they only played for 20 minutes. During the stage change, we realized how old we are. We were out of place...if only we had Lola with us! When Hillary came out it was madness. The scream from 2000 little girls is painful to say the least. It was like a Bratz episode! 5 teenagers stood on the stage striking ridiculous poses and strutting their stuff. The boys wore puffy white vests and did flips. The girls wore weird turquoise jumpsuit shorts. Hillary was in her own weird outfit looking like a skanky space woman. I would say the wardrobe was a little racy for the crowd. Although the music was not my style, the music was live and sounded pretty good. Oh, and we left after 3 songs.

Frasier

Once upon a time, when Bill was in town...




As you drive I-5 into Seattle, you are weaved directly into down town. The buildings shoot up on either side of the highway and at times you can't tell if the sides of the road are barriers or the base of these buildings.

We had been to see Bill's sister in Federal Way, and we were headed home on I-5. It was late and we were all a bit tired. As we approach Seattle, Bill says, "I wonder wich of these buildings Frasier lives in."

I thought I was going to pee my pants! We were laughing SO hard.

Lucky 21

Brian loves to win things from the radio. Long, long ago, when we were young and living in Eugene, Brian was the 16th caller. He wasn't sure what the prize was, but he called in anyway. Brian "won" two entries into a half marathon. Awesome. We got the chance to RUN 13 miles. I can't think of anything I would like more! Oh wait, I could sleep. Race entry... what kind of prize is that?

Monday, July 30, 2007

Brian: "Guess What! I was caller 21 on the radio today!"
Ashtin: "Great. Did you win something?"
Brian: " Yeah, I won tickets to a concert on Monday night."
Ashtin: "Really? Who is it?"
Brian: "Let me show you a picture." (typing on keyboard...) "Here, look."



Ashtin: "Hillary Duff? Did you know those were the tickets you were calling in for?"
Brian: "Yes."

What can I say... my husband is a teenage girl trapped in a man body.